Drinking a Beer

drinking a beer
waiting for her arrival
i try to think that i will be meeting my brother
but that method doesn’t work
my heart is still pounding
last time she smelt the alcohol on my breath
this time, i didn’t drink enough when she arrived
i was twitching
trying to hard to be carefree
burning sensation in my head all night
until the awkward goodbye
and then i was free
back home i went
into my room and jerked off
goodnight