my heart doesn’t pound as hard as it used to – The Whore Monger

my heart doesn’t pound as hard as it used to

my heart doesn’t pound as hard as it used to
maybe all those beautiful whores have numbed my senses a bit
which is good
when i was younger
if a beautiful woman said hello to me
my face and ears would turn beat red
and my heart would pump rapidly
to an extent, that still happens to me
especially if i know i will be meeting
a beautiful woman
one that i am not paying for
there’s this sense to impress
to entertain
to not bore them or be boring
they all want to laugh
and most of the time
i just don’t have the energy
or the care
or the know-how
and that’s when the bottle comes in